I've come to the realization that once God creates the 48 hour day, I'll be in much better shape. I am just seriously struggling getting completed, that which NEEDS to be done, much less that which my soul is yearning to express. I know I have things to share, creatively... a lot, that is. However, when to do it? Because something of creative nature, is never a "squeeze it in between loads of laundry and t-ball" thing. They take time. They take pondering, thinking, tweeking.....
A few months ago, when the Hubby and I went to AZ for a few days, I realized that I had a lot to say, to share (not with him per se..... though having uninterrupted conversations was amazing!) Yet, it was the first time in a long period that I had time to sit... and think..... and process thoughts. Anyone who is a mother gets where I am going here. The incessant "Mom!" "Mommy! " I need.........(fill in blank)" "I want.........." is like, well being pecked to death by a chicken. So to sit for a couple hours without anyone speaking to you is almost alarming. I realized, "I can do ANYTHING I WANT!!" and then realized I had no clue what that was...... I picked up a notebook and started writing, and this is when I still have a lot to say, to share, to express...... and now I realize I struggle to find a moment to do it. I fully realize this chaos is temporary, and I will miss it one day. I am not wishing it away in the least. Just taking the struggle in, processing it, and trying to figure out how to slice a bit of time for myself. So once I get the memo that a day will be extended to 48 hours, you will see some rejoicing!!!
