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Square bananas. I have never seen these before. They were at a friend of Jo's that we stopped at to see their amazing garden.
A beautiful orchid at the same friends' home.
I like to cook with wine. Sometimes I even add it to the food. W.C.Fields
Today Jo and I went on a hike, on a trail called the Crispeen trail. I think that translates to "A lot of huffing and puffing"... but I could be wrong. Carrying around another human being (the babe, not Jo) doesn't make it easier either! Anyway here are some pictures from the hike and Jo's house. I finally found an empty USB port, so now I know how to get pictures from my camera to the computer. Anyway, enjoy!
A flower in their Lily pond ... jut thought it was pretty. It opens during the day, and closes at dusk.
A "hand" of banana's, taken especially for The Guyser.
Just a shot of looking down the Crispeen trail...
Jo being silly, holding the flower of a..umm... some big plant that starts with "H"... can't remember, but the flower is cool, b/c it catches rain water, and frogs will live in them. THey are miny ecosystems...
I made it safely to Saba yesterday, after a day of sunshine and wonderful croissants in St. Maarten. Not too much has changed here.. in fact much of it looks exactly the same!!! I made beads today, which was wonderful... it has been too cold back home to do that lately. I am missing my guys terribly, but am enjoying just relaxing! I will post pictures, once I take some!!!
Saturday I spent cleaning and sorting (see previous post) and I came across my high school yearbook, which I didn't know I had here. It was strange to find myself having a physical reaction to looking through it. My gut was in a sort of knot. Then I found a box of tapes. Some of them mixed tapes from people in my life. Anyone who has ever gotten a mix-tape, knows the amount of emotion that is tied to that magnetic ribbon. Again, the same knot. I thought about this a lot as I cleaned, and I think I realized that it was a good sign. This time, here and now is where I am supposed to be. The knot wasn't from a desire to "Go Back, and Do it all over" as Eddie Money would sing, but rather a "Thank God I survived" sort of knot. I love my life (most days) and have come to a full understanding that life is about moments. It is a day to day journey. I gave up the idea of planning our future long ago ( oh, about 4 years ago!!) and have learned to roll with lifes curveballs.
However, I do wish I could go talk to that girl back then. I know I did not come into any sort of self-confidence until my mid-20's. I remember feeling unsure and sad and insecure. I know most people feel that way in high-school and maybe college. I am not unusual or unique in that fashion. I just wish I could go back and tell that girl that everything she needs is inside her. I know that sounds all touchy-feely and like a Hallmark card, but it is the reality. Until I had a point in my life to be left alone with my own thoughts, fears, and desires, I didn't have a clue as to myself. And I guess this leads into my fear "What if this is a girl?!?!?!" I am terrified to have a girl. Boys are simple. That is not a negative statement, just my perception of my experiences. I had three brothers. They are more simple. There isn't all this emotion and drama that girls bring to the table. So, How do I raise a daughter with the inner strength to realize that no matter what, she will be ok?? I don't know? How to you raise a girl with confidence? 'Cause it took me 24 years to find that??? I don't know.. these are the things I've been thinking about lately. Yes the little dresses sure are cute, and you can braid their hair and put in ribbons...but then then your babydoll turns 12 and hates you for the next 10 years..... more later.
The Hubby was on call last week, Mon/Wed/Fri/Sun and I am exhausted. Not in the same exhausted way he is, (by Thursday morning last week he had already worked 47 hours) I am exhausted in the "I haven't left the house alone but one 45 minute run to the store all week" kind. I LOVE my son. More than life. But I need some "me" time desperately. It doesn't help that he has been kind of sick this week, and it doesn't help that since the Hubby has been gone, the Guyser is kind of mad at him when he is home, and wants me anyway..... *sigh*.... There is only so much blood in the turnip folks....Maybe I will go get my hair chopped today....that is always good "me" time............
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So this morning it took almost 10 minutes for the dumb thing to read the "Cars" DVD.... this 10 minutes seemed WAY longer when someone is sitting next to you saying "cars? cars? cars? cars? CAAAAAAARS?!?!?!?!?!"
I called LG this morning, and after waiting 10 minutes to speak to someone, I found out that for the low price of $69, I can send it in and get it fixed. Great.... just great... Spend almost $300 on this dumb thing and within 6 months, we will have to shell out more money to get it fixed.
errrrrr....
The Hubby bought me a LG brand DVD-recorder/VCR combo for my birthday in July. In the last month, the stupid DVD player has just decided to not read DVDs. Not recordable DVDs, but ones like Cars, Winnie the Pooh, i.e bought ones. They are in good shape, not scratched. And if I repeatedly put them in over and over, the player will eventually read them. But what's the deal? I have googled this and haven't had a lot of luck with finding any info... any of you techy friends out there have any ideas?
Oh, and I think the Hubby shredded the reciept, so there goes returning it to Best Buy..... *sigh*
Today I am feeling like I am going to be bigger than a whaling ship with this pregnancy. I am 17 weeks today, and so far, I have only gained a pound. BUT MY BELLY IS HUGE!!! I understand that second babies show faster than the first, but come on! My doc said my uterus was tipped forward, so I don't know if that is helping the problem too... but my belly is out there!!! I find myself already waddling (so attractive) and my normal clothes are nicely packed away. Good thing for stretchy pants!!!
Needless to say, today I am not feeling the "glow" of pregnancy....
The Guyser puked 3 times between three times this morning, with the majority of the first even landing on me. Ah, the joys of motherhood. Any advice out there on how to get a 2 year old to drink Pedialyte? I have now tried Apple pedialyte, Gatorade, Squirt and he is having nothing of any of it. "Uck" is what I think he referred to it as! However, he did eat a bunch of soup. Here is hoping it stays down... and in.
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The Hubby had 10 days off, so we headed to NoDak to be with our families. Yes, I could have updated my blog there, but at both parent's homes, it is the "Death by Dial-up" situation....so I opted not to. We had a good time. There was fondue, kareoke, sleeping in and we even got to see a movie!!! We went to "Night at the Museum" which I really liked. The Guyser got a lot of time to play with his cousins and outweighed at least 2 of them. (He is the youngest cousin, btw.) The crappiest part was the drive home yesterday. We were stuck in that rain/sleet/snow storm that came through this area, and at times were driving 10 miles/hour on the interstate. YUCK. I counted 28 vehicles in the ditch on the trip. The Guyser was SUCH a trooper. He was only out of his seat 2 times from 10:30am until 8:45pm yesterday and didn't even really complain. However, he made it fully known to all of us that he was "stuck." (in his seat.) We got to meet up with an old friend of mine from high school who I haven't seen in years, and it was a fun time to catch up with him and his wife! Today I spent sifting through the wreckage of what the post holidays bring. I got the Christmas decorations put away (always a sombering activity....) and the boxes of the toys dissembled and put into recycling. (And yes, there was a few toy boxes...) My living room floor is now "GeoTrax" central and the Guyser played with his "choo choo" all day today. That, and watched his new "All about John Deere" video which he (as well as his dad) thought was pretty cool.
It's good to be home though....OH! And I think I am starting to feel Thing 2! Very cool!